4 ; Better & better.

Hey love, im glad we're going on real fine. No more fights & we tell each other everything now.We dont lie, if we're mad, we just speak up.
I've never tried that with any of my steads before. :D
I dont think im going for trngs from now on.
Back hurts a lot & i dont wanna go & feel like a loser time & time again.
Woah, been reading my messages inbox.
Thousand plus from him & im going to write all the messages down in a book :D
In case its all gone.
Been wearing B's shirt often, reminds me of him.
He say he wanna give me more shirts !
& yesterday his mum ask me if he could keep any books for me but then she realised im express -.-
Home at 5 yesterday & bathed 7 did my homework for the first time at home.
He was shock. & in the night, it was his turn to do, he copied # pages of words & he got cramps :D
Idiot.
Chatted with him till going to 2 then sleep b'cause my dad suddenly came in & i kup the phone without saying goodbye.
Slept at around 2.30 b'cause i was writing my diary.
Lamezxzxzx .
Now, im talking secrets with my sister on msn.
& im twitting like shitxzxzxz.
B'cause i think twitting is coolz !
HEck it la, im just crapping :D
Tata !
♥♥♥

Stone-ing will be progressed.

My every muscle in my weak & small body hurts effin lot.
Trainings wasnt as good as i thought as i always failed to acheive what i set for myself that day.
Today was;
Spiking : Push up the ball, get good contact, jump higher, position & do correct actions.
Underhand: Everytime front view underhand, more relax, to proper place.
Movement: Move faster, reach before the ball.
Sigh, didnt get any right except for jumping higher. Whats the use man.
My contact as quite okay today but it wasnt what i had in mind.
I really cannot take it already.
Played match, didnt spike any nice ball, all no contact & only two balls over -.-
Back was hurting & amanda knew it.
Feel like sleeping it away, sleep forever can i ?
dont even wanna move, dont even say run O.o
Everytime i run, my feet hurts. stupid damn ballet lessons -.-(i hateyou)
Can i take a break from reality ?
Sigh, hey, i really miss you ♥


It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return,
But what's more painful is to never have the courage to let that person know how you feel ..
Cass chai told me this & i agree with it alot.
Sigh, thats what i was last time.
But currently, my love life is getting better, much better :D
A gazillion thanks to youyouyou & some people might know.

2 ; Im really lost.

I rant what i want here.
Im rotting at home but i've finally persuaded my mum to let me attend back training.
I miss training hell of a lot a lot.
But there's 4 training in a week and i can only go for twice :(
i wanna go for a haircut.
Fine, i guess its not happening.
My life's totally screwed up now.
Vulgarities flood my whole brain & even the paper that im writing on now.
Yesterday went to the john little sale at Expo, there's nothing there.
Advice for those who are planning to go, please dont.You'll be wasting your time i can tell you.
So went to Tampiness mall instead.
Friend called and we gossipped about people & i tell you, we mcm like lao aunty.
I gave her a suggestion to eat a burger drawn on a piece of paper cause she was hungry -.-
I know its 'wth' lame right ?!
Trained back home after buying things to munch on *YUMYUM*
Back home and daddy drove us out for dinner, as i didnt know where we were going to dine at, i still had my makeup on. -.-
Im still totally moodless after the two blogs that i posted.
I wonder when can i get better ?
I really want my life back.
Damn those effin' result slips.
Pass by 2.5% overall isnt a crime.


Soon to be updated about more of my rotting holidays !
Cheers everyone ♥

1 ; Fuck up modd swings.

My blog is being privatised cause i dont want a lot of people nosing into my god damn business.
So here's another blog for my rantings.
This blog is created for me and my fucking shits so dont tell me what i should and should not do with my life.
♥.